Unprepared


No one is ever prepared to have his first daughter get married.




a child
and that child’s child
unprepared unsolicited undone by
water and blood

a child
and that child’s child
taking a first step
first bike
first backpack
boyfriend
trip
grad
another grad
unprepared unsolicited undone by
time and memory

a child
and that child’s child
giving her my arm
giving her away
with a smile a kiss and a photo
unprepared unsolicited undone by
loss and joy

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