The In Between

I’m in between light and dark
day and night
birth and death
departure and arrival
I left but I’m not there (not even sure where there is)

somewhere between non and infinite
there is finite

looking back (for a quick check
and then forward again) gives the illusion
that the horizon has moved closer
in the grand scheme it hasn’t
it’s always one twilight away
I think Tom Waits would understand

I’m in between
there and there then and then grey and grey
and sea to shining sea (please remove your hats)

somewhere between Wordsworth and Blake and Eliot there is
the splendor of the grass and infinity in the palm of your hand
as you lay etherized upon a table

I’m in between waking and sleeping
the cliché and the ineffable
in a world where you could Google it and your first hit would be:
“God is ineffable, a beautiful word”

in between east and west there is Eden

the word was after all in the beginning
and the word was with God and the word was God

how to end something that is
in between beginning and ending unformed and formed…
it is late

let us go and make our visit

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